I am solitary by choice, not circumstances.
I have friends, I'm not lonely.
I have love, I do have a heart.
I can be cold, I am made to be stronger than most.
I can be quiet, I was born to be the only child.
I can be funny and loud, I was taught to always have fun.
I can be anything I want to be. Only because I can.
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Bituwin -
Blogskin
Edited by Yours Truly.
Blog Title is E.B. White's famous words, rephrased.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
because i am too tired to sleep.
yes apparently that happens. when the exhaustion is so overwhelming and all you can do is sit and stare at things. i attempted to MSN with friends but that required too much energy. so i twittered and facebook- ed a little, and did no work at all. i did not nap since my return (6.30 p.m.) and canceled my tuition. its not a very good day at all.
started off all wrong, with the stupid kettle. we don't have hot water in the toilets (we never renovated this place) so every morning i boil water and pour it into the pail. today as i was pouring the kettle swung towards my hand, scalding my middle finger quite badly, and burning my 4th finger slightly. put some toothpaste on it immediately but by the time i was in school there was that ugly swollen blister. its really tempting to poke it but colleagues said that will risk infection so i am trying to be a good girl and not kill myself (or my fingers).
well that aside i only had 1 class. the lesson itself went well but during contact time with my form class i had to punish one of the kids. it was terrible, i don't even remember their names yet but this class needs a tight rein. so there goes victim no. 1.
it was quite sad to come back to staff room and listen to happy stories of discussing future CIP activities and class t- shirts whereas my first contact time with them was nothing short of a failure. oh well.
anyway i wanted to blog about a conversation i had with peepee. we discussed the unique challenges of teaching at this school, and how we handle it. and then inevitably the race matter was brought up because let's face it, i am a brownie in a sea of caramel (lite!) fudge.
we talked about how these kids struggle to conceptualize someone other than their race due to their socialization. and how, for some of them, having me in their class is a struggle. because i don't wear a tudung and i don't teach malay, they cannot fit me into their ready- made boxes of how a malay lady should be/ look like. and i don't blame them at all. at this age, this is where education comes in and create revolutions (or something like that).
as we talked about it, we discussed the question of "who are you?" and we realized for both of us, our race did not define us. when asked who am i, my first response is not; i'm malay. nor is it i'm a girl or i'm singaporean. at the very core of my being, i recognize myself as a person- i am foremost a reader, a traveler, a teacher. a football fan and so on and so forth.
we agreed that religion does not come into play in this as religion provides a different kind of definition to personality altogether. and it was refreshing and truth be told, a relief to meet a kindred soul, who even more fortunately, sits right next to me. so she's right there to share my buns (heh heh heh) and crack lame jokes to cheer me up.
despite today and the inevitable future struggles, i still know how lucky i am to be here and i will never stop being grateful.
now, to try and sleep.
started off all wrong, with the stupid kettle. we don't have hot water in the toilets (we never renovated this place) so every morning i boil water and pour it into the pail. today as i was pouring the kettle swung towards my hand, scalding my middle finger quite badly, and burning my 4th finger slightly. put some toothpaste on it immediately but by the time i was in school there was that ugly swollen blister. its really tempting to poke it but colleagues said that will risk infection so i am trying to be a good girl and not kill myself (or my fingers).
well that aside i only had 1 class. the lesson itself went well but during contact time with my form class i had to punish one of the kids. it was terrible, i don't even remember their names yet but this class needs a tight rein. so there goes victim no. 1.
it was quite sad to come back to staff room and listen to happy stories of discussing future CIP activities and class t- shirts whereas my first contact time with them was nothing short of a failure. oh well.
anyway i wanted to blog about a conversation i had with peepee. we discussed the unique challenges of teaching at this school, and how we handle it. and then inevitably the race matter was brought up because let's face it, i am a brownie in a sea of caramel (lite!) fudge.
we talked about how these kids struggle to conceptualize someone other than their race due to their socialization. and how, for some of them, having me in their class is a struggle. because i don't wear a tudung and i don't teach malay, they cannot fit me into their ready- made boxes of how a malay lady should be/ look like. and i don't blame them at all. at this age, this is where education comes in and create revolutions (or something like that).
as we talked about it, we discussed the question of "who are you?" and we realized for both of us, our race did not define us. when asked who am i, my first response is not; i'm malay. nor is it i'm a girl or i'm singaporean. at the very core of my being, i recognize myself as a person- i am foremost a reader, a traveler, a teacher. a football fan and so on and so forth.
we agreed that religion does not come into play in this as religion provides a different kind of definition to personality altogether. and it was refreshing and truth be told, a relief to meet a kindred soul, who even more fortunately, sits right next to me. so she's right there to share my buns (heh heh heh) and crack lame jokes to cheer me up.
despite today and the inevitable future struggles, i still know how lucky i am to be here and i will never stop being grateful.
now, to try and sleep.
Monday, July 06, 2009
that's my baby.
can't be prouder at this point. i want to cry.
giant hat of cleverness.
tomorrow someone i love will walk up a stage, shake hands with mr. president while looking like harry potter and wearing a giant hat of cleverness. and underneath it all, a white shirt with purple stripes and a purple tie, courtesy of me.
and because i don't have a clipart of a mortarboard, i figured this will do.
very very very proud of my nehneh. :)
and because i don't have a clipart of a mortarboard, i figured this will do.
very very very proud of my nehneh. :)
Saturday, July 04, 2009
its the good life.
went hunting for my olympus e- p1 but not available yet. grrr. also looked at sofas and flat screen tv! haha so fun.
then armed with a tub of ben & jerry's and a bag of chips, to norm's we go!
meato his cat was there to greet us, and norm was making... baked pasta; of italian food party fame. it just got awesomer. its so awesome that i ate half of suresh's vegetarian version and half of the meat one. FIERCE.
i tell myself i'm making up for the crappy canteen food i forcefully ingest for 5 days. hahahaa action actually friday only eat canteen food. mon and thurs eat instant soup with butter rolls. and tues + wednesday on MC. HAHAHA GONJENG.
its been a good week. i am well aware of my extremely good luck. i try to soften 'the blow' and tell my friends its not as awesome as they think, it comes with their own challenges etc. but realistically speaking, i have it a lot easier here than elsewhere. and i am grateful. and while i had my struggles with one or two classes, i think friday sealed the deal. laughter and smiles and engaged, listening faces all around. if i ever i feel jaded, i must look back to this week and remind myself why i got into this.
tuition tomorrow, and i forsee much meeting up on monday. probably with my nie missies. got my gown on thursday and my scroll etc. i'm just glad its over. and while i realized i could have gotten a merit instead of credit diploma, i also know that i wasn't in this to ace the living hell out of it. i'm pleased with what i got out of nie: friends, a qualification that allows me to do what i enjoy, and of course, a eurotrip in the midst of it all. best memories.
so friday came and lo and behold, borders sent me a discount coupon. so off to town it was, first to meet zat (where we ended up with a pair of new shoes each).
and then to tangs; where i got nehneh his graduation outfit. a purple tie, who would have thought. (: i'm happy to know some part of me will be there with him come monday, even if i can't attend his ceremony. and then it was BORDERS! a comic book and virgin suicides. mighty mighty pleased. book collection growing, can't wait to move and display them allllll. aaah my own personal library at last.
so i will read some tonight, and if i'm up to it, i'll prepare some slides for a briefing i'm conducting on tuesday/ wednesday. or some marking, perhaps. but work aside, some R&R first. and perhaps to start working out finances shall i really go through with december plans. heh heh heh.
happy saturday, all. and to all teachers; rejoice! long weekend! :D
then armed with a tub of ben & jerry's and a bag of chips, to norm's we go!
meato his cat was there to greet us, and norm was making... baked pasta; of italian food party fame. it just got awesomer. its so awesome that i ate half of suresh's vegetarian version and half of the meat one. FIERCE.
i tell myself i'm making up for the crappy canteen food i forcefully ingest for 5 days. hahahaa action actually friday only eat canteen food. mon and thurs eat instant soup with butter rolls. and tues + wednesday on MC. HAHAHA GONJENG.
its been a good week. i am well aware of my extremely good luck. i try to soften 'the blow' and tell my friends its not as awesome as they think, it comes with their own challenges etc. but realistically speaking, i have it a lot easier here than elsewhere. and i am grateful. and while i had my struggles with one or two classes, i think friday sealed the deal. laughter and smiles and engaged, listening faces all around. if i ever i feel jaded, i must look back to this week and remind myself why i got into this.
tuition tomorrow, and i forsee much meeting up on monday. probably with my nie missies. got my gown on thursday and my scroll etc. i'm just glad its over. and while i realized i could have gotten a merit instead of credit diploma, i also know that i wasn't in this to ace the living hell out of it. i'm pleased with what i got out of nie: friends, a qualification that allows me to do what i enjoy, and of course, a eurotrip in the midst of it all. best memories.
so friday came and lo and behold, borders sent me a discount coupon. so off to town it was, first to meet zat (where we ended up with a pair of new shoes each).
and then to tangs; where i got nehneh his graduation outfit. a purple tie, who would have thought. (: i'm happy to know some part of me will be there with him come monday, even if i can't attend his ceremony. and then it was BORDERS! a comic book and virgin suicides. mighty mighty pleased. book collection growing, can't wait to move and display them allllll. aaah my own personal library at last.
so i will read some tonight, and if i'm up to it, i'll prepare some slides for a briefing i'm conducting on tuesday/ wednesday. or some marking, perhaps. but work aside, some R&R first. and perhaps to start working out finances shall i really go through with december plans. heh heh heh.
happy saturday, all. and to all teachers; rejoice! long weekend! :D
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
tamparan wanita.
translation: a woman's slap? never mind. also known as a famous song by a malaysian girl band called elite. WHOO! anyway, straight to the point.
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
btw i'm in room
roxxxxorsss
suresh says:
eh?
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
i'm doing work!
in my room
on my TABLE
suresh says:
WHAT?!
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
which hasnt been used since WOODLANDS ERA
HAHAHA EH WTF WHAT?! SO DRAMA FOR WHAT YOU YINDIAN
suresh says:
hahahah
i've known you for quite a while now
and i have to say, the amt of time i've seen you to work on a table is...
well, lets just say its very rare
eh like howie day once said, even the best fall down sometimes. i never fall okay its just that my table was drowning in random paraphernalia as of 1 week ago. but now...
I AM A CHANGED WOMAN WEI.
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
btw i'm in room
roxxxxorsss
suresh says:
eh?
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
i'm doing work!
in my room
on my TABLE
suresh says:
WHAT?!
fizusthemissus ✰ says:
which hasnt been used since WOODLANDS ERA
HAHAHA EH WTF WHAT?! SO DRAMA FOR WHAT YOU YINDIAN
suresh says:
hahahah
i've known you for quite a while now
and i have to say, the amt of time i've seen you to work on a table is...
well, lets just say its very rare
eh like howie day once said, even the best fall down sometimes. i never fall okay its just that my table was drowning in random paraphernalia as of 1 week ago. but now...
I AM A CHANGED WOMAN WEI.
Monday, June 29, 2009
public service announcement.
as i was leaving school, i mentioned i was off to make new glasses (to leave in office for days my contact lenses irritate me which is probably daily). wl & jc told me to go for lasik, its cheap now, blablabla. as we went down the stairs:
jc: its quite cheap now lei, like $1600?
sel: ya but they might hyper- correct, it has happened before.
me: hahahaha wah then got x- ray vision *clutches head* no no stop... eh hahaha suddenly in class you go "stop mentalling stripping me!"
sel & jc: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
principal walks past.
me: *waves over- enthusiastically*
much later:
me: shit do you think she heard me?
yes i am a gonjeng everywhere. TSK. fortunately sel knows the P quite well and said that if she did overhear she would have told me off so umm, phew?
had all 3 classes today- of which 1 is an old class i taught for prac. they were so happy to see me they greeted me twice! okay no la they're just being cuckoo as usual. for all that i've said about missing my 15- year- olds, teaching 14- year- olds are definitely a different ball- game. fun, but can be VERY tiring. they have so much energy, should cull it and convert it into electrical energy lei. BETTER THAN SOLAR POWER I SWEAR THEY'RE MORE ENERGETIC THAN THE SUN LA.
so a lot of fun, happy moments, and while it all began in a bit of a headless- chickeny blur by the end of the day i was still laughing and smiling and happy. and i know these good feelings will fade in time and hence i must immortalise this day for that moment in the (near?) future when i question WHERE'STHEFRUITCAKE** WHY AM I HERE.
** some missed the post on this so just to re- cap/ clarify: where's the fruitcake in its many and varied form is MY definition of WTF. milder, in fact sweeter. HURHURHUR.
speaking of lame jokes, here's one from my darlin' peepee who is fetching her sizta from new zealand today =___= anyway!
have you heard the H1N1 joke?
it's spreading around.
don't worry it takes a while for most people. and then after she told her friend that apparently he said, "that's a good joke, it's very catchy!"
hi i'm fiza. i'm an english teacher and i like punny jokes. *collectively* hi fiza, welcome to english teachers anonymous.
before i sink further into madness, i shall depart into the world of lesson preparations. goodbye monday mundei!
jc: its quite cheap now lei, like $1600?
sel: ya but they might hyper- correct, it has happened before.
me: hahahaha wah then got x- ray vision *clutches head* no no stop... eh hahaha suddenly in class you go "stop mentalling stripping me!"
sel & jc: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
principal walks past.
me: *waves over- enthusiastically*
much later:
me: shit do you think she heard me?
yes i am a gonjeng everywhere. TSK. fortunately sel knows the P quite well and said that if she did overhear she would have told me off so umm, phew?
had all 3 classes today- of which 1 is an old class i taught for prac. they were so happy to see me they greeted me twice! okay no la they're just being cuckoo as usual. for all that i've said about missing my 15- year- olds, teaching 14- year- olds are definitely a different ball- game. fun, but can be VERY tiring. they have so much energy, should cull it and convert it into electrical energy lei. BETTER THAN SOLAR POWER I SWEAR THEY'RE MORE ENERGETIC THAN THE SUN LA.
so a lot of fun, happy moments, and while it all began in a bit of a headless- chickeny blur by the end of the day i was still laughing and smiling and happy. and i know these good feelings will fade in time and hence i must immortalise this day for that moment in the (near?) future when i question WHERE'STHEFRUITCAKE** WHY AM I HERE.
** some missed the post on this so just to re- cap/ clarify: where's the fruitcake in its many and varied form is MY definition of WTF. milder, in fact sweeter. HURHURHUR.
speaking of lame jokes, here's one from my darlin' peepee who is fetching her sizta from new zealand today =___= anyway!
have you heard the H1N1 joke?
it's spreading around.
don't worry it takes a while for most people. and then after she told her friend that apparently he said, "that's a good joke, it's very catchy!"
hi i'm fiza. i'm an english teacher and i like punny jokes. *collectively* hi fiza, welcome to english teachers anonymous.
before i sink further into madness, i shall depart into the world of lesson preparations. goodbye monday mundei!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
vainpot.
no, not me. i where got vain sia i am well- aware of my many and varied talent and beauty HAHA.
no this one. THIS is the vain person.
so apparently he went to the barber today and this barber maybe long never see him or financial crisis or what la then want to angkat him a bit then said he looked like the transformers guy. HOW BODOH PLEASE.
TRANSFORMERS GOT SO MANY GUYS LA. megan fox also can be guy seh SO GENERAL THIS BARBER.
so when he texted me that i replied, "which guy? the hero or the crybaby sidekick?"
and i then suggested its probably the arab- looking dude la. then he insisted that oh no la i went got stubble a bit all so maybe look like shia labeouf. WHAT ONLY THIS FELLA WANT TO LOOK LIKE HERO ONLY. dasar mamak okay.
WHERE GOT SEH.
slightly more similarity...
UNCANNY!
nehneh, the transformers 'guy' he meant was MEGATRON LA. I SWEAR NEVER BLUFF.
no this one. THIS is the vain person.
so apparently he went to the barber today and this barber maybe long never see him or financial crisis or what la then want to angkat him a bit then said he looked like the transformers guy. HOW BODOH PLEASE.
TRANSFORMERS GOT SO MANY GUYS LA. megan fox also can be guy seh SO GENERAL THIS BARBER.
so when he texted me that i replied, "which guy? the hero or the crybaby sidekick?"
and i then suggested its probably the arab- looking dude la. then he insisted that oh no la i went got stubble a bit all so maybe look like shia labeouf. WHAT ONLY THIS FELLA WANT TO LOOK LIKE HERO ONLY. dasar mamak okay.
WHERE GOT SEH.
slightly more similarity...
UNCANNY!
nehneh, the transformers 'guy' he meant was MEGATRON LA. I SWEAR NEVER BLUFF.
so lately.
celebrated the ladies 24th on the 23rd/ tuesday at bugis. had thai food because i forgot darlin' norm just came back from 5 week in thailand. made up for it with changi nasi lemak today! and also, cupcakes from toast/ marmalade pantry. ya had to go to both branches because marmalade pantry didn't have much selection left by the time i got there. but it was worth it, i think everyone enjoyed their cupcakes, as did i.
oh and monday i met saramarabobara and that was good too. we got matching elephant mugs from lim's art and living! and generally the same ol' good long chats we're prone to have. i love it. (: i'm so glad we're what we are. at least we have each other!
and today/ yesterday was BBQ/chalet at changi. i like changi chalets and chalets in general but because i have an idiot of a friend who goes by the name hafiz, the moment we arrived he said,
"wah looks like the set of congkak la."
if you don't know what he is referring to, consider yourself lucky. i unfortunately, watched this stupid malaysian horror movie with them and ended up hyperventilanting/ crying because IT IS THAT DAMN SCARY. it is okayyyyyyyy.
so not so good start. and then we tried to play Wii rockband and uhh, we sucked. couldn't even finish a song la GONJENG SUNGGUH. and i explained gonjeng to the group and somehow we concluded its referring to the uterus? or umm hair... never mind.
so after a series of sucky Wii attempts we went back to what we did best- eat. so off to changi village for nasi lemak! normal people have barbeques at changi chalet and eat barbequed food. foodies have barbeque at changi chalet and eat changi village nasi lemak first. like an appetizer.
came back, started fire, and we're off. while waiting for food to cook we played some taboo and uh wow. aWWWkward. to just name one such awkward moment:
my word: picnic. my team- mates: suresh & rohani.
my description: oh okay! (thinking: easy!) on valentine's day i organized this, i like to have this, its my dream wedding...
suresh & rohani: basket? park? food? parties?
fiza: ...................
when our turn ended i SCREAMED at them for not knowing the answer. WHERE'STHEFRUITCAKE!?!?!? PARK!?!? I ORGANIZED A PARK!?!?!!? granted i was too pissed at them for not guessing like IMMEDIATELY but wahlao eh PICNIC IS FUCKEN' EASY OKAY. AND NO I AM NOT OVER IT. NO MORE PICNICS FOR YOU UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE CHISSSSSSSS SUMPAH DARAH NAIK.
so yes as you can tell, its the way relationships end. another funny moment:
word: tongue.
fiza: okay so umm you kiss with...
suresh: ....passion?
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH AMAT GONJENG PLEASE.
okay so then we went back to what we were good at cuz taboo was becoming too destructive. the fish they grilled was so good!!!!!!!!!!! sedap wei happiness. and they so sweet got mushrooms for suresh haha. and ice jelly i like. and naz + sitti's friends are niceee. so yes, good times all around.
and then i felt mehhhhh because i will miss all these! not like i am going to die la but evidently becoming employed= different priorities/ needs/ time constraints sighhhh but ya la happy la i've had a good year of bumming about.
and i can't complain, there's so much to look forward to still. like LIVERPOOL IN SINGAPORE HELLO. and F1 in semtember! and probably ballet under the stars. and a bunch of french film/ theatre i wanna catch, if possible. little things to keep myself sane. though i am not expecting myself to be greatly displeased, i forsee stress.
friday we had a whole- day staff seminar and during the breaks in between me, peepee, ann and sel moved the stuff we left behind to our 'new' old tables. i got val's old table, so i am no longer a fire hazard/ door opener. and i re- opened my mama shop to much fanfare! 4 of us sitting together, its gonna rock. and we colour- coded our timetable to ensure we always know our matching break times HAHAHA rubbish.
so generally, in good spirits. plus plus plus this is MAJOR to me: i bought my own house! :D of course my mum is joint buyer but because i'm the employed one here i'm the first buyer and its my cpf being deducted here so yay me! ADULTING ADULTING ADULTING endless adulting since NUS ended its AHMAYYYZEENK.
okay i am gonna eat my prata kosong (satu) dua now. with teh ais limau yummmm. best supper ever. much love to the world, and here's something for all the working people;
oh and monday i met saramarabobara and that was good too. we got matching elephant mugs from lim's art and living! and generally the same ol' good long chats we're prone to have. i love it. (: i'm so glad we're what we are. at least we have each other!
and today/ yesterday was BBQ/chalet at changi. i like changi chalets and chalets in general but because i have an idiot of a friend who goes by the name hafiz, the moment we arrived he said,
"wah looks like the set of congkak la."
if you don't know what he is referring to, consider yourself lucky. i unfortunately, watched this stupid malaysian horror movie with them and ended up hyperventilanting/ crying because IT IS THAT DAMN SCARY. it is okayyyyyyyy.
so not so good start. and then we tried to play Wii rockband and uhh, we sucked. couldn't even finish a song la GONJENG SUNGGUH. and i explained gonjeng to the group and somehow we concluded its referring to the uterus? or umm hair... never mind.
so after a series of sucky Wii attempts we went back to what we did best- eat. so off to changi village for nasi lemak! normal people have barbeques at changi chalet and eat barbequed food. foodies have barbeque at changi chalet and eat changi village nasi lemak first. like an appetizer.
came back, started fire, and we're off. while waiting for food to cook we played some taboo and uh wow. aWWWkward. to just name one such awkward moment:
my word: picnic. my team- mates: suresh & rohani.
my description: oh okay! (thinking: easy!) on valentine's day i organized this, i like to have this, its my dream wedding...
suresh & rohani: basket? park? food? parties?
fiza: ...................
when our turn ended i SCREAMED at them for not knowing the answer. WHERE'STHEFRUITCAKE!?!?!? PARK!?!? I ORGANIZED A PARK!?!?!!? granted i was too pissed at them for not guessing like IMMEDIATELY but wahlao eh PICNIC IS FUCKEN' EASY OKAY. AND NO I AM NOT OVER IT. NO MORE PICNICS FOR YOU UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE CHISSSSSSSS SUMPAH DARAH NAIK.
so yes as you can tell, its the way relationships end. another funny moment:
word: tongue.
fiza: okay so umm you kiss with...
suresh: ....passion?
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH AMAT GONJENG PLEASE.
okay so then we went back to what we were good at cuz taboo was becoming too destructive. the fish they grilled was so good!!!!!!!!!!! sedap wei happiness. and they so sweet got mushrooms for suresh haha. and ice jelly i like. and naz + sitti's friends are niceee. so yes, good times all around.
and then i felt mehhhhh because i will miss all these! not like i am going to die la but evidently becoming employed= different priorities/ needs/ time constraints sighhhh but ya la happy la i've had a good year of bumming about.
and i can't complain, there's so much to look forward to still. like LIVERPOOL IN SINGAPORE HELLO. and F1 in semtember! and probably ballet under the stars. and a bunch of french film/ theatre i wanna catch, if possible. little things to keep myself sane. though i am not expecting myself to be greatly displeased, i forsee stress.
friday we had a whole- day staff seminar and during the breaks in between me, peepee, ann and sel moved the stuff we left behind to our 'new' old tables. i got val's old table, so i am no longer a fire hazard/ door opener. and i re- opened my mama shop to much fanfare! 4 of us sitting together, its gonna rock. and we colour- coded our timetable to ensure we always know our matching break times HAHAHA rubbish.
so generally, in good spirits. plus plus plus this is MAJOR to me: i bought my own house! :D of course my mum is joint buyer but because i'm the employed one here i'm the first buyer and its my cpf being deducted here so yay me! ADULTING ADULTING ADULTING endless adulting since NUS ended its AHMAYYYZEENK.
okay i am gonna eat my prata kosong (satu) dua now. with teh ais limau yummmm. best supper ever. much love to the world, and here's something for all the working people;
Friday, June 26, 2009
why i am a man in disguise.
i cried during transformers, twice. and not during love scenes -_-.
me talking about dating/ skirt- chasing:
be an INTERESTING nice guy
you're smart
you have interesting hobbies
that is more than can be said for most guys these days
and the girls who are worth their salt recognize that
so its just abt improving your radar
while stepping up the game
I CAN FEEL MY DICK GROWING
yeap thereeee you go. i think its time to lock this blog i talk too much shit.
me talking about dating/ skirt- chasing:
be an INTERESTING nice guy
you're smart
you have interesting hobbies
that is more than can be said for most guys these days
and the girls who are worth their salt recognize that
so its just abt improving your radar
while stepping up the game
I CAN FEEL MY DICK GROWING
yeap thereeee you go. i think its time to lock this blog i talk too much shit.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
meh.
keeping my eyes on 2015.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
many happy returns!
24 years ago today, these two ladies came along.
and my how they rocked the world. happy days, you two!
and my how they rocked the world. happy days, you two!
Monday, June 22, 2009
HAHA.
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sporadic.
there are times when i wonder if i was too rash in deciding. i never really explored my options before deciding on this. my friends are in london, istanbul, norway, japan... being everything from starbucks barista to english teacher. there are friends here, who are doing something different; private sector, freelance, theatre/ production, own shops, flying the skies with various airlines... the list runs gamut.
most days its easy to block it out, to not think. bond- breaking is not even an option for me. not only because its financially impossible, its just not something i am capable of. i stick things out. but i don't want it to be about survival. i want to thrive.
its always the same thought process: the what ifs. overseas education. or biting the bullet and just go, and see what happens. maybe be a waitress in london. why not?
and then i see these...
and i know i've made it okay till now, and i will be okay for a while to come. the circumstances as is have allowed me to have the life i have now and it will do me no good to live life in envy of what i can't have. if i love the life i have now, then i cannot wish for more, since that more would mean a different life, and no, i don't want to change this.
if i had went overseas; i'd be away when mum was ill. i wouldn't have met the nehneh and spend glorious years in NUS with him (and apiz!). if i don't do what i do now; where am i to get awesome 3- week long breaks to go anywhere i want, with whoever i want? especially now that mum's retired, there's so much life to live, so much world to see.
clearly a whole bunch of things has led to this point- reading my friends' blogs, looking at their photos, jet- setting everywhere, knowing a friend who has chosen something else over teaching (good on you, luv, good luck tomorrow!) as well as the fact that i just got my timetable and i didn't get any pure literature classes to teach. which was the subject i enjoyed teaching most. but i am hopeful, perhaps next year, or the next, or the next. either way, i have decided to be happy with my lot. cuz it is a pretty good lot as is.
here's to the next 3- 4 years.
I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month of May
most days its easy to block it out, to not think. bond- breaking is not even an option for me. not only because its financially impossible, its just not something i am capable of. i stick things out. but i don't want it to be about survival. i want to thrive.
its always the same thought process: the what ifs. overseas education. or biting the bullet and just go, and see what happens. maybe be a waitress in london. why not?
and then i see these...
and i know i've made it okay till now, and i will be okay for a while to come. the circumstances as is have allowed me to have the life i have now and it will do me no good to live life in envy of what i can't have. if i love the life i have now, then i cannot wish for more, since that more would mean a different life, and no, i don't want to change this.
if i had went overseas; i'd be away when mum was ill. i wouldn't have met the nehneh and spend glorious years in NUS with him (and apiz!). if i don't do what i do now; where am i to get awesome 3- week long breaks to go anywhere i want, with whoever i want? especially now that mum's retired, there's so much life to live, so much world to see.
clearly a whole bunch of things has led to this point- reading my friends' blogs, looking at their photos, jet- setting everywhere, knowing a friend who has chosen something else over teaching (good on you, luv, good luck tomorrow!) as well as the fact that i just got my timetable and i didn't get any pure literature classes to teach. which was the subject i enjoyed teaching most. but i am hopeful, perhaps next year, or the next, or the next. either way, i have decided to be happy with my lot. cuz it is a pretty good lot as is.
here's to the next 3- 4 years.
I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month of May